to you

to you

I keep seeing you in

All the upset places

Ok

it’s like this

there’s all this rubble and these rocks on the ground

and little tiny small shards of diamonds

or glass

but I swear they’re diamonds

I’ve been trying to put them all together

To make something beautiful and new

But maybe it’s better to leave them all broken

apart and mixed with the dirt and rocks

That’s how I left you that day

Anyway

I took my heart out of your capable hands

And you’re a fool if you think I’ll hand it over like that again

No matter who you are

You are my ending

My love

My absolute love

And I will fight you with all my fight

Unto the end and to the next beginning

Don’t underestimate me

I breathe with all the violent fire of this setting world

When the sun is in your eyes on the beach you will see me

In the gasping ache of our dreams

In the nights of stars

In the boxes of the windows of the subway

You will see me

Tunneling underground take my heart with you

And bury it somewhere out of sight

I don’t want you to have it in your

Capable hands

She can have you

As she always had